My first weigh-in of 2011 was not good.  Not good at all! 

Tonight I’m going shopping so that I can stock up on healthy veggies – I really should have done it this weekend, but I was in a perpetual state of laziness.  Which is why my foods today aren’t exactly the best….but they’re not the worst either!

Food today:
B:…work was crazy so ended up eating my breakfast for lunch
L: Cream of Wheat (3 pts), 1 tsp Splenda (0 pt), 1 cup 1% milk (3 pts) = 7 pts total
S: None yet – brought 4 small clementines (0 pt), string cheese (2 pts), and applesauce (0 pt) = 2 pts total
D: ????
E:  Either Walk it Out (Wii) , Just Dance (Wii), or Zumba (Wii)

The Second Day of the Rest of My Life

I have a confession to make. I’m a chronic scale junkie. I weigh myself everyday, first thing in the morning right after I use the bathroom. Normally, it keeps me on track. I understand weight fluctuations, so seeing the scale fluctuate a few pounds here or there doesn’t really bother me normally. At least, when I’m good.  When I’m other than good, I tend to forget the fact that I own one.  See, if I don’t know the numbers I don’t have to be accountable.

I know my journey isn’t all about the numbers on the scale. I still need to take measurements – that is something I need to work on.  Maybe a picture….but then again, I hate getting my picture taken because then I’d have visuals. But that’s the thing with shame. I feel such shame at how I look I don’t want any reminders.

Two years ago I was at the other end of this journey.  I was steadily losing.  I could shop anywhere for my clothes ~ not just the plus sections. I felt better.  I exercised everyday.  I made healthy choices and stuck to them.  Now, most of my clothes don’t fit and I refuse to buy bigger sizes.  (Maybe one day I’ll post on emotional eating – that’s my biggest downfall)

So this morning I weighed in.  Down 2.2 pounds.  Yay me!!!  So I wrote it down in my Scale Journal and will talley up the average for my “official” weigh in next Monday.

Today I’m just living for today and the choices I make within these 24 hours.  Can I fit in a walk?  Can I drink more water than I did yesterday?  Can I prep my food tonight so I don’t have to rush to do it in the morning?  Sure I can – the question is what will I choose to do for me today?